strange day :/

Hmmm bit of a weird one today. I tried everything to stay out of the house today. what am I avoiding? The loneliness? The housework? The responsibilty or the sheer fear of being shut inside 4 walls with the baby. WHO KNOWS! My head is full of crap today and the most amazing ideas ~ ideas that are impossible to do, but hey a girl can dream. Had a lot of thinking time today, thought about the overdose and how Tillys dad saw me take the pills and then just got up and walked away. From that moment, I knew he was a coward and was scared of being found with me and being caught out by his girlfriend. I knew from that moment that I wasn't scared of this pathetic figure of a man anymore. Xx